KISSING ON THE FIRST DATE

It used to be “don’t sleep with them on the first date”. Remember? Now in my life, it’s don’t kiss ‘em on the first date or they go poof. Has it really gotten to that? It’s bizarre. Could it be that phenomenon I speak of with my friends: whatever you tell them not to do, they will…whatever the deal breaker is, they will, without a question, just do it.

I told my ex husband before we got married that hitting me would be a deal breaker and, you guessed it, he beat me to a pulp . I left him, of course….

Then I told my live-in boyfriend that conditional love would be a deal breaker. silly me. Every time something serious happened in our relationship, he would sit me down and tell me he couldn’t love me the way I wanted. The third time was the charm and I let him go.

The last guy I fell for I felt as if I had grown and I told him “lack of communication” was my deal breaker ( I’d learned there is no unconditional love in this world. Clear communication seemed an easy goal) it took him a total of 6 months to drop me on my head by not responding to any of my texts or calls. When I broke it off in a text, ( yes, eye for an eye) his only response was “wow”….

so I’ve made kissing a deal breaker. At least I get kissed before I get fucked and not necessarily in a good way. Getting fucked seems to be a constant in my life. As the kids say “smh”or my personal fav: “OFFS”.

Where do you go from here? I think I’ll start telling guys not to fall in love with me…..what other choice do I have???

© black sheep matters 2017